I have to start where I am right now.

Right now I’m weird.

Weird is the word I use to describe myself when I’m not sure what I am or when I want to avoid what I really am.

So actually, I’m angry, sleepy, excited, inspired, and drained. Since that is a relatively weird mix, I can see why I’m weird.

I sat down to write my blog today and words poured out, but nothing landed.

I found myself editing, correcting, and thinking too much.

So I stopped, took a shower, and gave myself some space.

I realized that it was hard to write because I was trying to write from a space that I was not actually in.

I was trying to write from there when I actually was here.

If I try to be somewhere where I actually am not, I literally cannot be because being happens in the present moment, right here.

When I stop and pay attention to what’s happening right now, emotionally, mentally, and physically, I get to be. I get to be present. I get to be clear. I get to be grounded, rooted, and powerful. I get to be these things no matter what I’m emoting, thinking, or feeling.

Here is where I get to be as soon as I start being here.

In love and liminality,

Annie Rose