Depression runs in my family. For years of my life, I’ve struggled at various moments to keep my head above water. One time, I stayed in bed for a good part of 3 months. Another time, I moved through daily life, slowly and sluggishly, in various shades of grey, until colors finally reappeared. Those big depressions lasted for months; others lasted for weeks or just days.

I went on medication once for a short amount of time, but soon decided to heal my depression naturally. (I know that’s not the right step for everyone, and I honor other people’s use of medicine.)

In the course of my journey, I learned a lot about my triggers, and I do a lot to limit them.

Recently, however, I’ve been focusing more on triggering happiness and releasing endorphins and less on avoiding depression. It’s a simple switch in context, really.

Here are some of my favorite happiness and endorphin triggers:

Sweaty Running: no matter how tired or resistant I am, I push myself to run a few times per week. I run 4 to 7 miles, and I get nice and sweaty. I love to run outside and explore neighborhoods by foot. Sometimes I listen to great music; other times I brainstorm and do some critical thinking. Running clears my mind and makes my body happy.

Strong Yoga: Not fast yoga, but strong yoga. I need time to settle into a pose and breathe. I love to challenge my muscles, push my mind beyond its limits, and feel like I worked hard after class. Yoga increases my circulation, releases physical tension, and gives me time and space to connect my mind with my body. It also helps me get out of my mind and body. Sometimes I practice at home by myself, and other times I seek the guidance of awesome teachers.

Peaceful or Pummeling Surfing: Whether I’m easily catching waves or getting pummeled by waves beyond my skill level, surfing invigorates me. Plus I get to see dolphins and seals and spend time in Mama Ocean. And surfing provides me with endless insights about myself and my life.

Deliciously Healthy Food: I love healthy food. Whole foods work best for my body, and I prefer to eat light, nutrient-dense foods. Sometimes I’m challenged in this area, but I enjoy the process of refining my diet and giving my body good health.

Loved Ones: I don’t have anyone in my life who I don’t consider a loved one. My friends are funny, honest, straight forward, trustworthy, creative, and loyal. They’re also people who have the capacity to really be with me and all of life. I am incredibly blessed with amazing friends and family.

Keeping It Simple: I dig simplicity. Having walked across Spain twice and spent months on the road or in tiny places, I’ve learned to surround myself with things I love or need. I deep-clean my house regularly and go through everything I own twice per year. I let go of attachment to material things (I have nothing against material things—they’re just not my jam), and I keep my spaces organized and clean.

Travel to Other Countries: Traveling and getting out of my comfort zone makes me so happy. I talk to locals, take public transportation, eat street food, and go on adventures.

Giving Myself Space: I let myself be who I am. This means that sometimes I do get messy and disorganized. Sometimes I shop too much. Sometimes I take a nap instead of going to yoga. Sometimes I fall into the trap of depression triggers and avoid happiness triggers. But I practice loving myself through all of it and giving myself space to fully live life.

Being Intimate: Intimacy is super important to me. I need to connect with human beings. I need to have real conversations. I love meaningful, in-depth, heart-felt conversations. I love looking into people’s eyes. I love being of service. I love loving and being loved. I infuse my relationships and interactions with people (strangers included) with love and intimacy as often as possible.

These are just some of the many things I do to induce happiness and endorphins. I also dance, smell roses (they’re everywhere in L.A.!), play board games, and so much more.

With love and liminality,

Annie Rose